I’ve been holding off on the J post. Partly because I was afraid there was no going past a J is for Jesus post and frankly, THAT was one I didn’t want to write.
So I’m compromising. Which is a little dicey… there isn’t supposed to be any compromise in Jesus. At least there has been a lot of ‘black and white’ in my background… so if this post finishes before it is.. well… finished… you know I’ve crossed some line and have been struck by a massive lightning bolt or something…
Anyway, back to John… could be anyone but isn’t … it’s this John.
I came across a post from his blog on one of my daily reads, and now he’s one of my daily reads… I’m impressed by him. He’s always been one of my favourite songwriters, now he’s one of my favourite bloggers. He did freak me out a bit by dating Jessica Simpson… proof positive that even really creative intelligent people do REALLY STUPID things… but he’s probably grown up a bit since then…
He sings this.[Link to iTunes]
Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put ’em in quotations.
Say what you need to say (x8)
Walkin’ like a one man army,
Fightin’ with the shadows in your head.
Livin’ up the same old moment
Knowin’ you’d be better off instead
If you could only…Say what you need to say (x8)
Have no fear for givin’ in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It’s better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.
Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closin’,
Do it with a heart wide open.
(A Wide Heart)
Say what you need to say (x7)
Say what you need to, Say what you need to…
Say what you need to say.
It’s my new favourite song.
My world is teetering. You’ve probably guessed that if you read this often enough. I’m not sure what it’s on the edge of. I’m not sure if it’s the whole turning 40 thing. I’m not sure if it’s time to leave work. I’m not sure if it’s time to leave Australia, I’m not sure if I’ve given up hope of ever seeing the motherhood dream come to pass. I’m not sure.
I’m just not sure.
I don’t like how this place feels. I should be talking to Jesus about it.
But I’m listening to John instead.
Oh, sweetie… I wish there was something I could do. But hey, if John is helping for the time being? Why not!?
Oh, back to the tech stuff (I thought you would like to know): When I try to sign in to comment on your blog, it still tells me I have an invalid login. But I think it’s because your MT thinks I’m trying to sign in as you? When I’m obviously not… You are making sense of this, aren’t you?
On a different and more devastating note… I was a VERY bad and stupid girl. Remember that pretty SA Blog Awards widget you so kindly inserted for me over at redsaid? Well, this morning, I was overcome by the desire to perform a virtual spring clean and decided to delete the widget. Since the blog awards have been over for a while and all…
AAAANYWAYYYYY… (you’ve probably already figured out what happened next)… normally I’m super cautious, and I’d copy and paste the code as is before making any changes… but NO, not this time. I was clearly suffering from a particularly bad case of the Mondays, because I… well… the sidebar? It ended up IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BLOG’S BODY. But hey, I DID delete the widget!! Anyway, Mahendran (aka SilverSabre) is in there right now trying to figure out how to fix my mess, but if you get there and see chaos, then you should know that he obviously didn’t manage to get it right!!
And this is why the likes of me shouldn’t be left to my own devices EVER…
erm… the problem may well have been that you’d created a log in but I hadn’t approved it… ergh… still learning this system…
If SS doesn’t manage to fix Redsaid… let me know!
xxx