Knowing my Place

I think it’s common knowledge that I work for a religious organization, right? If you missed that somewhere along the line this post would have sounded a bit bizarre… And it follows, of course, that I am of a ‘religious’ [read Christian] persuasion… Anyhoo, that’s the context for knowing my place.

I came to Sydney to study singing which I did, full time, over a period of 3 years. I made that decision to leave home at all of 31 years old because I felt very strongly that I fit in the position known in my circles as worship leader (vocalist part of the band/team leading the congregation in a worship service), and I felt that I needed to get better equipped to do it well.

College was a great time, I got a much richer understanding of that role and of my voice, and developed a confidence that I was actually capable of taking that role on and actually excelling at it. So it may surprise you to know that I am not singing in church at all.

There are a myriad of circumstances that put me in this place rather than the other. Some of them were not so good and make it really difficult to see the road back. Circumstances that brought lots and lots of deals to work through to stand on stage again in front of a church full of people, to be part of the team and get up at a sparrow’s fart to sing on Sundays.

The reason I am thinking about it is that the one place I do still sing in a worship leading role is in the staff meeting at work. (Our staff meeting looks just like church but just a lot smaller.) Staff meeting has had its challenges over the last months but today it was rocking.

Today I felt like I was in the right place.

Damn

Now I have to work out all the crap that is keeping me in the wrong one the rest of the time.