Well, after 40 odd days of counting down and 2 weeks of holiday I’m in countdown (hours) to takeoff time again.

In rather a cliched fashion I am mystified at the speed at which 2 weeks of doing very little can go so very fast… I finished my holiday with a night and day with Hun and Sil and Jem and Kit. As is customary when Kit and I get to see each other we get together to do something girly. This time was a sleepover and a DVD, we watched the Incredibles and of course Jem loved that too. To close out my time with them and to celebrate Hun’s 30th we went here to see the night glow which is an annual event. Picnics in the dark, fireworks and treat food… every kid’s dream!!!!

I spent last night with Muvva and soaked in a hot bath to ease my aching back after 2 weeks in 5 different beds and now I am writing my last Kiwi blog entry before heading back to the “West Island” and to the office tomorrow morning.

In the time since I have been gone I have had inquiries for quotes for 2 more small contracts… yikes and I have a list of about 10 people who are looking forward to catching up!! Looks like the next couple of weeks are going to be busy ones… Not the least of which is our 1st ever Australian Wibmeet… at the Blackbird Cafenext Sunday 24th 4pm. Wibloggers, Wibreaders and all interested parties invited!

Sis and Mr Sis and I elected to go and see this movie at the local cinema this evening. So we dropped Scooter at his aunty’s who was elected babysitter (no, not me, his other aunty) and toddled off to the multiplex.

The Taupo Multiplex.

Taupo is not a sprawling metropolis… and before I forget it’s pronounced Tow(as in Ow!) Po (as in Oh!).

As the movie, (known in English as Seducing Dr Lewis) is a bit ‘arty’ (being in French and all) one doesn’t expect to see it in ‘The Grande Theatre’… so we were booked for ‘the Lounge Theatre’ (given that the paper advised booking as A Good Thing)…

Being a big city chick I had envisioned the Lounge Theatre to be decked out with your favourite lazy boy type chairs and tuxedoed waiters serving champers and hors d’ouvres… Just Laaavly Dahling!!! For which one expects to pay a bit of a premium etc… but which serves to heighten the experience…

But no.

Remember? This is Taupo, not Sydney….

So we were directed to our allocated viewing room (which I suspect is just the kind of room you might see at some body’s private screening room) and were surprised to find…

Eleven seats (hence the need to book)

A Sony Home Theatre system with speakers in all corners of the room, (subwoofer peeking out from under the curtains which lined the walls)

The DVD title menu playing giving away the method of projection (which negated the need to sit through ghastly advertisements…).

We were the only ones there, clearly French language movies are not the mode du jour for the general populace… but the movie was charming and highly recommended.

Funnily, there were some rather bizarre choices where the subtitles were concerned. Someone in the translation department forgot that they were translating for English Speakers rather than the Deaf so where there was moaning and groaning or bells ringing, (which one could concievably imagine would sound the same in any language), the subtitler thought it prudent to advise the viewers that there was indeed (moaning) (groaning) and (church bells ringing).

Anyhoo, I am leaving Taupo for Cambridge (which is smaller than Taupo, it doesn’t have a cinema, let alone a multiplex) for my last two nights and heading back to Sydney on Sunday. What was God thinking when he made holiday weeks move at twice the speed of normal weeks? It isn’t right…

[ed. Have realised that the references to moaning and groaning might indicate a somewhat different movie than I had intended. Rest assured Seducing Dr Lewis, while it may sound slightly saucy, is not ‘that’ kind of movie at all…tame, very tame indeed.]

April 11 is an auspicious day in Deeleeaville actually. Not a birthday but an Anniversary.

You see, last year April 11 was Easter Sunday and on Easter Sunday 2004 my world got turned upside down.

It’s a bit awkward really, because I could speak volumes about it and get into hot water if he were to stumble across this blog. I think it unlikely, but for safety’s sake let’s just that say on that day, someone I was in a very close relationship with was revealed to be something that he was not.

It’s a disturbing thing to find out that everything that you think about someone is false and the reverse is true; it is a truly disturbing thing to find out that everything you thought you were doing with that person is of no value and was to serve their own agenda. It is a distressing thing to find out that you have been played for a fool for the best part of 3 years and you were completely oblivious.

I guess that’s the definition of being played for a fool isn’t it?

Completely Oblivious.

So, I Severed All Ties. And haven’t seen him or any of the people he keeps company with for one whole year. I have never even bumped into him in town. Clearly our travelling circles have moved away from each other’s or I have been shielded by some force greater than my own wish not to meet him.

I am grateful for that and yet one year later I am tempted once again to touch base, to show him a little of my world now. To peek into his and see what has changed, if anything, if for good or for not. But I know that to do so is to invite more trouble than I ever want to see again and so, in spite of the loss that is to me I Abstain.

If I honestly thought that he would see just how badly damaged I was, and some of my friend too for that matter and if I thought that he would be able to look me in the eye and say “I am sorry” and know that he meant it I would feel as though a meeting might be valuable, might bring some closure to me.

But I know deep down this is not the case so I carry that little bit of unfinished business and keep trucking along.

Even for me to write and say “Look! I am well! I am succeeding without you!” might feel on the surface to actually close that final curtain on us, or to say “Actually, I am excelling without you!” would feel like a great thing to be able to just make that little dig, but it would achieve nothing and open a dangerous door.

So, I carry on. Accept that a chapter is closed and sigh that I could have been a lot worse of than I am.

I could still be with him and I am not.

That is good.

That is very good…unfinished business or not.

I have been ‘resting’. Which is slightly bizarre actually. I am regularly in possession of thoughts that I think I should be writing down for you, gentle reader but when I actually start to type it all sounds like bollocks (pardon my english).

So I have been reading and not writing.

Until now.

Actually, it isn’t as though there is very much to say, even at this point but if I don’t post something I fear I may forget how to do it at all…

So, to date I have been having a marvellous holiday. I was pleased to find mother in fine form which is a nice. It was actually not a little amusing to find her relieved that she didn’t have to entertain me on Friday night so she could go out with her girls rather than dropping everything for my visit. This is a Good Thing by the way, for if you have read my post about her accident you will know that fine form is not always mode du jour.

I have moved on from mother to pa and am spending the weekend back down on the farm. I had the obligaire wander round the property and we were followed by the 3 cats who usually do the evening tour of duty with Dad as he checks on the plants and the rabbit situation and other day to day sort of checking things [and thinking things, i suspect] that farm chaps do.

We spent this evening at the movies watching Being Julia which was an unexpected treat. I had heard a brief synopsis and had not felt sooo enthusiastic but as it was Dad’s shout went along for the ride!!! I am not much of a movie reviewer and so I will say I loved it and recommend it highly! That and the delicious Indian dinner we followed it up with.

Monday I am heading to Sis’s place for the week to spend it with her and Scooter and Mr Sis. That will be a relaxing week. I want to say “Yay, I am going to sis’ house!” but that get’s a bit confusing in case Yay thinks I am talking to her…

Hmmm I will say Yippee instead….

Yippee!!